OMG SNOW PATROL

Tonight I hung out with him again. For the first time since last winter. The one I referenced in the prior post, "False Love Maze". Although I do not feel the same as I did before...I felt tempted to fall down that rabbit hole quite a few times throughout the night. The first time was when he complimented me on how I looked. The second time was when he played that fucking song in his car that made me crazy when I was at my worst- in total obsession. It's this song by Snow Patrol.

So in the car I laughed about it. I shouldn't have brought it up even but I'd had a few too many which always makes me too honest. Anyways, I joked about getting home and listening to it again and writing a blog post about it... so stupid. Here I am...doing just that. Also I think I love Snow Patrol.

The line that always really got me so bad: "There is a darkness deep in you, a frightening magic I cling to". 

That's it.

I thought he was so much deeper than he is.
I wished he was
I still wish he was,
no one is.

It's probably going to be like this forever.
It's my own fault
I always expect too much
and people can't live up to my ridiculous standards
not even I can.

I want to punch a wall.